symphony of obdurates

2006-11-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

it's been donkey years since i last post an entry.
i'm on the verge of forgetting that blogger ever existed.
blogs are stupid to start with anyways.

obviously i won't post an entry for no apparent reason?
hons stuck in girl's brigade camp and i'm all rotting
at home.
how pathetic.

i'm yearning for something that is out of this world.
i'm yearning for her.

2006-09-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

i had my last day off shopping.

wanted to get a pair of boxers from levis.
wanted to but didnt.
wanted to get 3 pairs of boxers from topman.
wanted to but didnt.
wanted to get a pair of strinking yellow top
for my gf from topshop.
wanted to but didnt.
so my gf and i pamperred ourselves
with candy from candy empire.
we bought loads of chocolates and sweets.
wanted to get more candy.
you guessed it, wanted to but didnt.

i got an imported candy from pakistan, jealous?

2006-09-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

remember my pet fishes
lucas, leroy, rykiel, menses and period?
oh, menses and period died
so i flushed them down the toilet.

the good stuffs never stay,
they come and go.

2006-09-25T14:10:00.000+08:00

"symphony of obdurates,
a group of stubborn people.."
haven't got any chance to explain,
well there you go.

2006-09-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

had been away for a while,
truckloads have happened like really supermassive?
like when i got my pair of havaianas?
when i got drunk on liqour?
and when she meant everything to me like now?
it all seems so short,
just a few sentences to make a life story.

2006-08-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

exams are just two days away and i smell holidays!
no muggers,
dweebs only.

oh, i went to sentosa today and it got me pretty high?
bikinis, board shorts, loads of stuffs and my gf.

avanna got herself a banana
and a snapshot with a monitor lizard.
i got mine with an eagle (jealous?)

my vintage affair (=

2006-08-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

have been neglecting my peers LOADS of late.
let us not create a huge hoo haa? i apologize?
am sure you dudes and dudettes understand.
ain't my fault to fall in love right?

- unphotographable, but i photographed it anyways.

- glutton's bay kaya fondue, die die must try.

- queen of hearts (=

2006-08-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so tired before that you
could just shut down anytime and die?
it would be a blessing i guess.

can someone enlighten me please?
what the fuck is pork twee bah?

dots. dots. dots. dots. dots.
a few dots just to make a sentence.
back to old school.

2006-08-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

my brain juice are all dried up.
i have yet to think what to post about.
i'm addicted to her

picture perfect (=

- green is sexy

2006-08-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

after work today, i was like using eye power observing everything.
tired people walking like zombies,
rubbish flying all over the place,
this lady who was screaming at her imaginary friend
and there i was, missing her like truckloads?

oh, i met xiaoyan today - tt chipmunk who choked a fishball.
ROTFLOL (=

- ava adores her seaweed

2006-08-12T11:38:00.000+08:00

gosh! like finally i can blog again!
i've got truckloads to blog about can?
stupid fuck renovation screwed up my CONNECTION!

HAPPY BELATED 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

oh, i have forgotten what to blog about.
i love her truckloads.

- fireworks are korny

- town is korny

- but she's the korniest (=

2006-08-12T11:32:00.000+08:00

testing 1

2006-08-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting here all by myself
trying to think of something to do
something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
but it's not working out
cause you're all that's on my mind

i didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

everything's too good to be true.
i'm breaking down.

2006-08-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

post blue entries.
my inner thoughts and feelings.
those little sweet stuffs.
it is just a jigsaw puzzle.

muse is super nice.
their raging gay hormones somehow
make music sound extra special.
i'm amused!

i got my fore arm vandalized!

this is little ava. it is ugly but adorable.

2006-08-03T12:07:00.000+08:00

this is the way it should be for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own

dear diary,
i won't beat around the bush,

i can't make out with you tt often anymore.

i suck truckloads. i know.

i guess she will drift apart two.

sigh, this sucks.

2006-07-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

love is not just the feeling,
it's the attitude. (wan ting)
love does not begin and end
the way we seem to think it does (aisha)
the little little small things.
quiet walks together,
taking care of each other (myself)
knowing each other's faults
& still loving them anyway (samatha)
even if it's a step @ a time,
not letting go of each other (khairull)
endless time spent on the phone,
and the special moments we share alone (malcolm)
just love loving the person (avanna)

and even getting worried for no apparent reason.
no one understands.
sigh

2006-07-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

it takes no time to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is.
it takes some fears to make you trust.
life is wonderful.

loads of congrats to "untamed" for being
champions of ' law games'!
you rock my sock.

2006-07-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

am wondering why i feel so empty.
everything seemed so very wrong.
so damn awkward.

went to watch "superman returns"
ytd @ plaza singapura.
the movie was super draggy!
superman looked super korny in his size S underwear.
claudia went nuts! she said she saw an egg?
there wasnt any!
then meli needed tissue?
i think she teared!

3.00 a.m-

claud, xiwen, meli

2006-07-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

i think i can stop the rain.
with me doing the rain dance
and staring blankly @ the sky.
i think the clouds are shy.
nods*

off to town.

2006-07-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

in fashion, you're either in or you're out.
for karma, what goes up must come down.

i know!

fuack!
my left toe hurts,
i pulled my right thigh muscle
and my whole body is aching.

round? flat? for all i care.
he loves her.

this awkward silence makes me crazy.

2006-07-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

i want to blog but i'm too sleepy!

2006-07-16T11:19:00.000+08:00

a guy once told me
"if you can't fight them, join them? "

a girl ever told me
"if you can't change her friends, make them yours?"

and i ask myself
"if i can't get a gf, i go and steal one?"
spastic!

love is blind.

courtesy of bedok reservoir's
toilet signage.

2006-07-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

i was @ the bus stop today and
a cyclist cycled by.
he had the coolest sticker @ his bike.
"ladies are freaks!".
damn funny.
quite true actually.

i'm addicted to the reservoir,
just like i'm addicted to her.
my camera, my bitch.

life is not always a bed of roses.

2006-07-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

bragging about life being negative
is getting very very mundane.
come to think of it,
there are little little positive stuffs
that makes living meaningful.

truckloads of ferrero rocher chocolates

the beauty of nature

love, lust

and something called friends

i guess that what makes 17 years of living worthwhile.
many perceptions, my imagination.

2006-07-09T21:05:00.000+08:00

ladies and gentlefucks,
dudes and dudettes..

pretty boys,
grow a ball sack, and fist yourself?

2006-07-07T11:48:00.000+08:00

what the fuck?
i was like slowly devouring a peice of seaweed chicken and
there was this sudden loud bang and the whole building shook!

well anyways, the most embarrassing thing happened ytd.
it was a total huge bummer!?
claudia and me took the lift down after seeing mel off,
when the lift door opened, i got super scared?
there was a freaking big ugly mean black dog staring at me!
the owner was just beside it. they were like going to get in the lift.
it was so frightening can?
i hid behind claudia and kept pushing her to go first?
we got off, they got in.
the owner who is an auntie looked at me and called me a CHICKEN!
WTF!?

- la la land sucks

2006-07-04T16:09:00.000+08:00

for all i care, it's you.
nothing else matters.
i have got feelings two.
who cares? i do.

2006-07-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

"why keep your options open?"

the brain told me,
i deserve a better fuck.
as the days pass us by,
i got fonder of you.
is it you that make me sweat?
everytime i see you,
this heart they race.
the thought of you lingers in my mind.
i see you in my dreams.
my eyes dilate in fear,
scared tt i'm gg to lose you.
the brain it fuses eventually,
it got me insane.
we were more than best friends,
never lovers.
i may not be the best bf alive.
i can't shower you with wealth.
all i can promise is my sincerity.

2006-07-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

someone ever told me,
"when you think life is the lowest,
it is gg to change for the better".
why?

2006-06-28T19:56:00.000+08:00

after 8 freaking long months,
i am still unattached?
why?
who to blame?
what to do?
where did i go wrong?
when was it?
how?
i am like bombarding myself
with questions i don't even
have an answer to.

and then i thought...
"i am keeping my options open."
(the brain said that)
do i even have an option?
it made me think,
the problem lies in me!?
it had been me all along!?
i have got brain fuse anyways.
jealousy? character? looks? finance? lust?
beats me.

- life still suck, nvr been better

2006-06-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

i got to see the SUN RISE today!
like finally after 16+ years?
it was really super nice.
worth every effort waking up early,
jog halfway through bedok reservoir
and glare at the rising sun.

- life suck a trillion

2006-06-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

i'm blogging.
blog
blog
blogging.

2006-06-16T12:40:00.000+08:00

1- Towning pics
"http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=28961982"

2- Sleepover pics
"http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=28963865"

2006-06-16T11:24:00.000+08:00

Affection, attraction, affinity.
It all make sense right?
I need a gf!
Everything's coming together
like a jigsaw puzzle.
The barrier?
I want to keep my options OPEN!

lovely right?

I've uploaded the photos i took recently.
Have yet to show them off.

2006-06-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

oh, i'm designing part of a friend's new room.
which is nicer?

1 -

2 -

2006-06-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

con't

i just had chicken rice and it was so good!
i want to prove to everyone tt i'm not skinny
nor a walking anatomy.
i'm like gg to take loads of proteins
and pee truckloads? chicken, fish, potato!
my metabolism rate is like so freaking high can?

bummers.

i'm like gg to be hpless by the end of the week.
stupid fuck. sigh.

2006-06-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

was typing out my entry when
i had a sudden urge of eating.
i'm like gg to eat first.

cont'd

2006-06-08T18:35:00.000+08:00

i was nice today!
i behaved myself
and i controlled my raging hormones!
what more can everyone ask for?

firdian is nice incident 1 :-
i was in the bus trying to find seats.
holy crap there was a whole stretch
of empty seats at the rear.
a whole freaking stretch!
i was so full of lust then.
until a freaking GROUP OF
RETARDED KIDS SAT BESIDE ME!
it was a freaking family potrait!
WE ALL looked so similar!
it was so moronic/pathetic.
i was nice!
i talked to this 'guy' who sat beside me
though i don't understand a thing he
was saying, "ding dong ding dong?"
i didn't tease him!

firdian is nice incident 2 :-
i donated to handicap person who
came knocking at my door.

I'M SUCH A NICE PERSON!

2006-06-06T13:38:00.000+08:00

waiting impatiently,
for someone to take me away.
my mind will rot slowly..
everything will decay..
life's so fucked up?
so negative?
i hunger for bliss..
it's my solace.

it all started with a kiss,
how could it end up like this?

2006-06-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

life suck.
life's negative.
so full of electrons.
negatively charged.
woo lala.

2006-06-03T16:09:00.000+08:00

What a beautiful wedding,
Says a bridesmaid to a waiter,
Oh yes, but what a shame,
What a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore
Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies

what if my wife's a whore?
so heartbreaking? so fun!

the feeling of rejection is freaking nice.
feeling rejected is god-like?
super depressing? super nice!
she likes me?
she likes me NOT!

oh, this is avanna jr.
i think it's dead.

2006-06-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

not vain nor desperate,
i'm just trigger-happy!

taxi drivers are conning me!
i totally suck at giving directions?
oh, taxi drivers have no other pick up line!
"which way you want to take?"
the shortest lar! fuck?
oh, they will take the longest route,
claiming it's short cut? irritating!
oh well, karma is being nice.

2006-05-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

i drew tt flower!
(=

2006-05-29T18:11:00.000+08:00

javascript is really retarded.
it's super complex!
to the person who invented javascript,
"i am smarter, i can cut and paste".

oh, i got myself 5 pet fishes from the
tetra family, neons.
and i gave them names!
there's lucas, leroy, rykiel, menses and period.
and i'm getting more tetras.
oh, fishes are nice to torture and torment with.
i killed my fighting fish by smashing
it against the tank.
so fun.
(=

some photos i took recently, enjoy.
"http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=26697008"

2006-05-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

changed layout, hope you like it.

2006-05-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

this morning i went to study with jinx.
the rest of the day was pool!
it's amazing! really is.
played pool with claudia.
then her friend zach came.
then claudia pangsei me.
so she owes me lollipop.
then another friend of hers came.
melissa. oh, i made two new cool
friends. i told you it was amazing?
i was like so exhausted.
the bus i took reached the interchange
and i was still sleeping! really malu.
and oh, happy mothers day!

2006-05-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

oh, i'm like really really bored.
it's a public holiday for god's sake
and i'm at home!
how much better could it be?

oh, i don't really understand
why i can't be serious.
people complain i am too
serious when playing soccer
and stuff.
"relax lar, relax."
oh, i find tt line super irritating.
tt's the way it is,
it comes naturally obviously.

sigh, when will i get a new phone.

2006-05-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

oh, ytd was such a lovely sat.
headed down to sentosa.
as usual we would go buy sushi
at harbour front mall's cold storage.
it's nice okay? trust me.
oh, we went to siloso beach.
kind of wasted didnt go for a dip
cause our motive was to watch
"the boys from brazil" play *bs.
they were like so freaking good lar.
thought team singapore kind of won
after 5 tries to redeem themselves.
on our journey back, we got lost.
it was damn funny lar.
we walk our way out of sentosa!

*bs = beach soccer

2006-05-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

DR ONG IS ONE FUCKING
MOOD KILLER!
cb, lj, knn, nb!
oh i'm really pissed and irritated.
i stepped into class, acted as if i trip
and fall. then the cb shouted across
class and scolded me! wtf?
oh, i laughed of course, everyone did.
the lj shouted, "it's not funny!, go sit in
front! don't drag the table!"
omfg! fucking annoying!
i was damn pissed of course.
i gave him attitude throughout class.
fucking donkey. not disiplined my foot!
and you can't even smile in class!
IT'S A FUCKING FREE WORLD!

2006-05-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

glutton's bay, makan sutra!
satay, carrot cake, chicken wings,
mee goreng, coconut!
eat under transparent umbrella
in a middle of a drizzle.
so nice!

2006-04-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

POLY term begins today.
had my first lecture and i wasn't late!
surprisingly ya?
the first lecture was super fast!
then during eng maths 1 lecture,
it was hilarious lar, i was feeling
bored and so i folded a paper plane.
i decorated the plane with
words SEXY and it took off.
it flew..
and flew futher..
and hit yuying. bull's eye.
then she blushed and crushed lar.
blush still can crush, evil right?
so i folded a paper heart and
wrote SEXY and if i could have her
number. it's funny lar. just so funny.
she returned it back to me at the end
of lecture, thought she had wrote her
number. heart pain.

2006-04-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

3 days of orientation,
3 days of cheering and shouting,
3 days of total bonding,
and a start of a new life.
..

2006-04-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

day 1 at poly. - orientation
seriously it's one 'stupid fuck' day.
boring, tiring and waste of time.
played all those childish ice-breakers.
the ol's were bragging about underworld
and stuffs. i mean like wtf?

there's 12o++ students taking chem
eng and divided into classes of 2o++
my class is AD15, a weird bunch.
there's:-
- a weirdo (jing xiang)
- a guy with lion head (marcos)
- a guy who's on the phone non-stop (zaki)
- a bastard who cabot after lunch
- one 21 year old guy
- a kallang airport kia (ashley)
- ronald susilo
- ivan who always kena sabo
- a really die die gan cheong spider
- a few dudes and dudettes
- and there was yuying, who looks like xiwen

guess i'll have to spent the rest of my
poly life with the dudes and dudettes.
sigh..

2006-04-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

yay finally i can photoshop my pics.
though it's only a 30 day trial,
but who cares?
sua gu woman is such a nice soul,
she had been very very helpful?

ytd night was really frightening,
my little brother showed me this
really horrifying photo.
of a ghost lar.
had trouble sleeping,
then i felt something crawling on my arm.
WTF COCKROACH!
my heart beat damn fast like turbo fast.

then this morning i wake up i saw
a dead cockroach on the carpet.

WHAT? okay shit happens.
tomorrow school starts. damn sad.

the photoshopped photos.

2006-04-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

i used to think tt cartoons are so boring,
but desert punk totally changed my mind.
it's the most pervertic yet hilarious
anime i've ever seen.
this sunabouzu guy is a mercenary.
he's like totally cool. surprisingly he's ugly.
then there's this hot lady with big breasts.
argh! there's so many things to type out.

desert punk - wed to fri(11.30pm)

2006-04-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

argh! really fed-up. both my idiot brothers
annoying me. first, i have an outrageous
little brother who is really irritating
and stubborn. always getting on my nerves.
then there's my older brother.
big, lazy and kinky.
the raging hormones of his are so disgusting.
he would moan out of the sudden.
make his voice sound like a chipmunk
supposedly be a cute girl and
go "aah.. aah.. ahh!"

ARGH! SO DAMN IRRITATING!

2006-04-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

kids.
they are so damn annoying + irritating.
their cries are so deafening.
hitting them gives me pleasure.

silence in black and white..

heh, i'm not a saddist okays.
kids are cute.
fullstop.

2006-04-11T17:26:00.000+08:00

miss beautiful eyes is so evil lar
make me guess her number.
the last time i played guessing numbers
got me into trouble.

ytd i went to ecp to cycle.
hah, we actually pushed our bikes down
the underpass. really surprising.
i'm such a good citizen.
the weirdest thing happened ytd.
there were 2 lady joggers, they were
dancing while jogging?
and there was this blader,
he had his ears plugged in listening to opera.
and he was like dancing and humming?
we tried to overtake him but wtf?
he was at turbo speed.
madness!

2006-04-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

taking back sunday - make damn sure

sua gu woman is such a nice and helpful girl.
for being such a helpful person, i'm gonna
give credit to her by not calling her sua gu
woman for a week. no bargains.

okay, there's a bangla downstairs and i
can hear him yack damn fast like i live
at the 12th storey.
i told you indians drink oil to lubricate
their throat.
oil make words come out at turbo speed.
and ooh, make damn sure.

2006-04-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

i so hate catalysts.
things tt speed up decompostion.
i don't want to die - firdian frets.
you know i so hate people who
wears my clothes!
i hope you die a painful slow death.

turning into a emo punk rock kid.

2006-04-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

my raging hormones says i have

to tell the truth and only the truth.

i'm turning into roasted bakkwa!

you can't save me,

you can't change me,

i'm waiting for my wake up call

when everything's my fault.

wait, ain't bakkwa roasted?

indians do drink oil!

cause i say so.

2006-04-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

changed layout. wootzies.

2006-03-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

had a chalet at dte(pasir ris) yesterday.
the dude and dudette organiser kept
pestering us to go to the ' Red House '.
everyone was obviously reluctant because
it was past twelve(a.m).
so kouk wei called 5 of his riders down
as they're older(experienced).

12 of us walked down towards ' Aloha '(loyang),
turned in..
walked..
and walked..
dogs barking out loud.
and there was the ' Red House '.
it was already creepy even from the outside.
the front gate was chained.
two lion statues lay at the sides.
benny(oldest) told us not to step on
the lions when climbing in.
suddenly..
ben vomitted..
he drank too much alcohol lar. hah.

so the the dudes and dudettes climbed in.
i was a bit worried at first because we were
making truckloads of noise,
the residents will complaint lar of course.
we walked towards the old torned down house.
we went through the living room, the bedrooms, toilets
and the main front porch.
it was pitch dark and really scary.
everyone was flashing their phones.
bart and benny was at the back,
suddenly..
they turned..
and ran..
and i tailed them..
the others were oblivious of our disappearance.
bart and benny took a short cut and we hid.
the other 9 walked past us.
really cool. hah.
and BOO!
bart and benny charged towards them.
everyone screamed, even the dudes!
it was the coolest thing ever.

we all climbed out and headed back to the chalet.
everyone was really tired by then,
the mahjong tai tai's were still playing.
the riders brought down liqour.
it was on the house lei, hah.
we all drank all night long.

i only manage to get this link,
"www.sfogs.com/ghostpix/g89.htm"
(photo of the ' Red House ')

it was morning.
benny's friends told us he had the third eye.
he told us that there was a lady sitting on top of
of one of the dudes when we were in the ' Red House '.
and a few saw ' it ' too.
totally horrifying.

2006-03-17T19:30:00.000+08:00

went to shop for clothes at far east plaza.

there's this very interesting girl carrying

a white box outside tangs plaza.

she approached us and asked,

girl : "would you like to donate for the elderly?"

khai :"peace(showing peace sign)"

girl :"erms, would you like to show your peace

by donating?"

khai : (speechless)

me : (laughing my ass off)

it was cool okays, so we didn't donate.

khai felt bad and thought she was a great

samaritan.

she was there since a month ago till today.

so after shopping at far east plaza,

we decided to donate.

and we donated..

girl :"peace!(smiling)"

she actually remembered us, hah!

khai :"don't you feel great after donating?"

me :"erms, no? she might break the box open

after the day's donation?"

hah, i'm evil. please support her ya?

ruffles with green tea is super addictive!

2006-03-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

we were kicking balls today

and there was a grocery cart nearby.

so i thought of torturing someone.

and picked the one with braces.

we tossed him into the cart and started pushing

and pushing..

it was hilarious kind of.

until khai spun the cart round

and round..

and let go.

the cart turned..

and turned..

and it crashed!

khai 'thought' the cart was gg to spin non- stop but it didnt.

hah!

humourous.

helmi's still alive though,

2006-03-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

absolute nothingness.

it's been shit boring nowadays,

no cash, no girls, no princess kind of.

it's like you're drinking neat liqour. (no mixtures)

pure boredom. it's really mundane.

bleargh!

triple 6

2006-03-09T15:00:00.000+08:00

when there's sympathy, tendency to climb over the head is inevitable.
how i wish everthing could rewind.

and there i was kicking balls as usual.

until the idiot came and joined our team.

with due respect, we did what he told us to do.

he made us run like some dog.

and so we changed team.

i was with the ball when the idiot stepped hard on my ankle.

and fuck, my ankle sprained.

sometimes i just feel tt humans are just plain idiots.

what are brains without brawns?

2006-02-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

haha LMAO har, fuck

i screwed my budget, and it's damn korkness.

did my mother ate money when she was late?

i need a remembrance, i wish.

went to town with a cramped right calf, how sad.

went to bugis for pre - dinner, darn sweet.

walked along this restaurant and the

dirtbag waiter told the menu.

i mean omfg, shut up!

so i gave an immediate 'DON'T WANT!' right

at her face before her 2nd sentence.

anyways, had dinner at seoul garden for the first.

it was heavenly scrumptous.

2006-02-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

coolness.

i kind of did well for my o's,

l1r4 - 13.

I PASSED MY ENG(b3)!

erms, applied for dip in htm,

darn sweet course.

will be studying at SENTOSA if i get in.

well anyways, happy valentines!

though i got no date.

well, shit happens.

i just realised esplanade is the coolest

place to see drunk idiots.

so darn cool.

they'd be puking all over, knocked out.

bouts of vomitting.

2006-01-29T11:30:00.000+08:00

with social grace,

happy get together eating bakkwa day!

may the crakers explode at your face,

and the lion shit at your corridors.

2006-01-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

a friend in need is a friend indeed.

it's like the other way round at carrefour.

it was so korky that colleques fought

over rights of helping one another.

all the other depts ganging on my dept 31,

totally fucking stupidly unreasonable.

the duty manager was so darn incensed.

we had an 'adult' talk till late midnight,

i missed my really really last bus.

wtf? damn.

2006-01-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

a mouthful of mothballs,

a spoonful of chemical romance,

a handful of reality,

and you get lots of heartpain.

poisoned by the mothballs,

my greastest wish.

i just got to let it go.

2006-01-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

i just realised i will be carrying

a penknife with me around everyday.

touch me and i'll slit your apple.

confession of a saddist.

2006-01-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

friendship is a one way journey,

either you make friends or make enemies.

it's inevitable not to have fucked up humans.

you can't possibly go round the hostipal

telling mothers in labour,

"this better be good".

2006-01-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

i used to think i'm ominous,

but my job is threatening me.

it can't be procrastinated anymore,

till 31st and i'm gone.

2006-01-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

carrefour will be my deathbed.

i'm conquered by fatique.

muscles aching, hands in pain.

so much of committing suicide,

i'm already halfway through.

2006-01-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

no one can survive on a diet of hope.

but i could!

i got a le coq sportif bag i was hoping for

and a job at carrefour(ps)!

another tale of a broken home.

2006-01-13T09:30:00.000+08:00

emancipated.

come to think of it,

all the throbbing pain will be gone.

i doubt so though.

it's only the beginning.

2006-01-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

my mother is leaving,

my brother is going too.

happy family i guess, not.

faking a melancholy smile is child's play.

rather not smile or be despondent.

i'm not alone.

2006-01-11T10:30:00.000+08:00

senses fail.

yearning that someone could fix it,

but figured out tt everyone's too stubborn.

giving a gleamer of false hope,

time and time again.

2006-01-10T11:30:00.000+08:00

with sombre resplendence,

i'd like to wish everyone a deblessed

pig slaughter day.

i'll just sit back and snort the eulogies.

modesity

2006-01-09T09:30:00.000+08:00

it's not tt bad i guess,

blog reincarnated.

2006-01-09T09:00:00.000+08:00

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